My reflections through a journey (1)……………

Life’s a journey that we are in, certain things happen for us to learn from and it is a choice to learn or not. Lately I have been learning from lots of my past experiences things that would never be taught in the class or by a mentor. The greatest battle we fight is that of the mind, as a man thinks that what he really his. Words have the creative ability to form or deform you so what words are forming in your heart and coming out of your mouth?

To win in life you must win in yourself, win in your heart or else you’ll be shadow boxing, fighting a wrong battle. Imagine training and fighting the wrong opponent! It’s a wasted effort as strength, time and energy are channeled to the wrong use. We all have been there, I’ve been there and most times we make up excuses why we had to pass through such experiences never admitting our faults and learning from them. Most times we dictate what we want instead of just letting go and trusting, and we end up fighting and using up precious energy on trying to get and keep our own desires instead of what we where created and formed for.

My prayers for you through this journey may we look back and never stay back, putting our past behind and run to the greater glory ahead, may we surpass our past best,moving upward and forward always in what we do. May our hearts be continually filled with love, peace and joy. May we always realize our mistakes, correct and not dwell in them. And if there’s still time to make amends do them without shame if not just let it go because another opportunity will come up and if not careful you would make same mistakes…this darling girlfriend will keep you sane and firm. Believe.

If the message of Jesus Christ and the cross of Christ doesn't change every minute of everyday for the rest of your life you either don't believe it or don't understand. - E.V. Hill

am i religious?

Have been kinda troubled in my mind and it concerns my weekend outing that i mentioned earlier, i agreed on going on for a religious event with a friend. The church hosting it are well known for their stringent rules and regulations and this event had a specific set of rules which had to be followed to get the desired results. I have been pretty sceptical but my friend was quite encouraging as she believed it would be the end of our problems, but i have been unsettled in my mind and my beliefs because i felt like i was now depending on a man to get my prayers answered instead of looking up to God, i now felt like i was needy,desperate and kinda uncontrollable i.e i could go to any length just to be fulfilled. this was highlighted more in a talk with a dear friend... i really had to think and reflect on myself and beliefs. called to cancel to the dismay of my friend who wanted a partner badly. I new a change is not going to come until i change myself and make a firm decision to stay changed.
That's the decision i have made. I'm shaky, because its hard, we all know living to God's standard is hard, there are things i do, situations i get in that i forget all about him and think about self satisfaction. For some of us nothing ever works right expect its done right. That's me for sure, so i better start acting right before i realise its too late and all i'm filled with is coulda , shoulda , woulda.