it was a long last week, things just decided to happen all at once, there was a nation wide strike which lasted three days (still went to the office though) and there was the matters of the heart. I have to announce with sadness that I ain’t miz boo no more, the duration of the relationship was a record 3 days, i experienced something new during that period and it really got me thinking about all this relationships and how much you should tell about your past and how much of the past should you allow into your relationship.
We are all products today of yesterday and we can change tomorrow by what we do today, so that means if yesterday was tearful and sad,I have the chance of deflecting on that today and making this day the best. Well some people believe otherwise.
I think I’ve grown stronger in my heart these last few days and more determined. More determined not to let my past hurts, foolishness dictate what I am, to trust more in God, put all my faith in him. Because when rejection comes because of what you did in the past not because of who you are now it can be hurtful, painful. In relationship where there is no total acceptance, belief in the present and hope for the future then everything is just a game.
Falling in love is a decision, being with someone is a decision, wanting to remain is a decision.
We all get to that point when it’s not the physical attraction that matters, but the decision to stay no matter what or despite this or that, that’s most important. And it takes two to make that or come to that decision, not you alone because if you do you’ll just be living a fantasy, hurting yourself badly.
Let’s stop being hypocrites; we have all been through the similar experience although they weren' t same or same number but we elicited same feelings, we handle things differently but there should be a point of understanding, a place where there’s sync, a mesh where all comes together. Those different strands are our personalities, our experiences, our past, hurts, triumphs everything interwoven together to make a fine pattern of colors, a beauty to behold or a show a confused and scattered form. Its your choice to make.
We are not scientific experiments, we are not even experiments just people searching for something that matters most in our hearts, sometimes it takes several heart breaks and pain to find that true one, sometimes just one try and sometimes we never find it. But one thing for sure leave your past behind, its pattern and look for the jinx breaker, the person could be right under your nose or anywhere in the world that pushes you far from yesterday more into today and eternally to a new future, when you hear their voice and see their eyes you see yourself whole. its not all about promises, we all make and break them , its about inner knowledgge , a witness deep down that brings that soothing calm deep in your soul..
Well some ramblings on a Monday morning……………………
This song by Donnie Mcclurkin somehow got me through last week, really meditated on the words of this song this weekend...........
What do you do when you've done all you can
And it seems like it's never enough?
And what do you say when your friends turn away, you're all alone?
Tell me, what do you give
When you've given your all, and seems like you can't make it through?
Stand and be sure Be not entangled in that bondage again
You just stand, and be sure.
God has a purpose.
Yes, God has a plan.
Tell me what do you do when you've done all you can
And it seems like you can't make it through
Child you just stand You just stand Stand
Don't you give up
Through the storm , through the rain T
hrough the hurt , through the pain Well, you just stand
When there's nothing left to do
You just stand
Watch the Lord see you through
Yes, after you've done all you can You just stand
Don't you bow, don't bend Don't give up, don't give in
Hold on, just be strong God will step in and it won't be long
Tell me, how do you handle the guilt of your past?
Tell me, how do you deal with the shame?
And how can you smile when your heart is broken and filled with pain?
Tell me what do you give when you've given your all
Seems like you can't make it through?
After you've done all you can
After you've gone through the hurt
After you've gone through the pain
After you've gone through the storm
After you've gone through the rain
Prayed and cried,you've prayed and cried
Prayed and cried, prayed and cried
After you've done all you can,
you just stand.
Child you just stand,
when there's nothing left to do
You just stand
Watch the Lord see you through
Yes, after you've done all you can
You just stand.
N/B
Just to tell a great friend Happy belated Birthday, funny how I sent Birthday greeting weeks before the actual date and I never forgot, just got side lined by certain events. Happy Birthday Akin, I wish you all the best you ever can wish for.
