am i religious?

Have been kinda troubled in my mind and it concerns my weekend outing that i mentioned earlier, i agreed on going on for a religious event with a friend. The church hosting it are well known for their stringent rules and regulations and this event had a specific set of rules which had to be followed to get the desired results. I have been pretty sceptical but my friend was quite encouraging as she believed it would be the end of our problems, but i have been unsettled in my mind and my beliefs because i felt like i was now depending on a man to get my prayers answered instead of looking up to God, i now felt like i was needy,desperate and kinda uncontrollable i.e i could go to any length just to be fulfilled. this was highlighted more in a talk with a dear friend... i really had to think and reflect on myself and beliefs. called to cancel to the dismay of my friend who wanted a partner badly. I new a change is not going to come until i change myself and make a firm decision to stay changed.
That's the decision i have made. I'm shaky, because its hard, we all know living to God's standard is hard, there are things i do, situations i get in that i forget all about him and think about self satisfaction. For some of us nothing ever works right expect its done right. That's me for sure, so i better start acting right before i realise its too late and all i'm filled with is coulda , shoulda , woulda.