i feel lazy like the wind
unable to move my muscles to the beat
life's beat
fear grips often
ever so often
as my chest falls back inside
intimidated or timid, i really can't tell
what i want to be
becoming what i dream are miles apart
so i struggle,
fighting elements,panting
maybe i can get some accolades for trial
but almost never counts is the reply i get
the by stand is filled, too shy to move ahead
too far away to turn back
i stand still as i hear the cat calls and taunts
someone just pointed at me i said
as i felt my skin crawl with saliva
hot blazing sun,
red shot eyes
tired
tied
by my will
not by their jeers.
it can do nothing, I'm alligator skin
inches thick, filled with black pride.
my pride.
so i stand.